My Lovely Diary

2009-08-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

seeing a road never ending

determine the direction that i want

take me to an incident where my heart softens

these days as i look into ur eyes

i only see a million questions about my love for you

this mystery will end at the end of this story

love.....

can make me strong

i wish never, anything to take you away

my heart say it can't stand losing you

the lost of ur love

i live life without a soul

Special Friend

2009-08-24T00:36:00.000-07:00

Sometimes in life, you find a special friend.

Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop.

Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.

Someone who holds your hand and tell you that everything will be okay.

Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

When you're down, and the world seems dark and empty, special friend lifts u up in spirit land makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full.

Special friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times, and the confused times.

If you lose your way, special friend guides you and cheers you on.

Maybe I can't fulfill all those requirements to be ur special friend but I wish to hold your hand and tell you that everything is going to be okay.

You're so history

2009-08-24T00:25:00.000-07:00

now that its all said and done

I can't believe you are the one

to build me up and tear me down

just like an old abandoned house

what you said when u leave

just left me cold and out of breath

tell to far, was in way too deep

and i never thought i'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

more than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess its really OVER

I'm finally getting better

now im picking up the pieces

the day i thought i'd never get through

i get over you

now im putting my heart back together

cause i got over you..

GOODBYE

2009-08-23T23:45:00.000-07:00

1st thing I would like to say is SORRY my blog for neglecting you!!!

I've been working for the past few weeks..

College is officially start 2morrow... in an twinkling of an eye,

books and studies will be integrated into my life again

feeding my brain cells which are absolutely not in hunger

oh god shut me down for now :(

Next week, new start

Lets keep life simple and sweet !

2009-08-22T00:12:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it better to let go

Sometimes you can't let go

is it really up to me

is it really meant to be?

but I wish i can make my choice

2009-08-19T00:22:00.000-07:00

Can you hold me

and never let go

when you touch me

and its me that you want

2009-08-10T00:00:00.000-07:00

Hmm..i'm not in the mood lately..

i don't know why..

I can't explain this feeling

I think about it everyday

Its so hard to express this..

There were a few kind souls out there made everything better :)

Thank you for sending me all the way home from town and then back to town again.
Thank you for buying strepsils for me
Thank you for caring and asking if i'm feeling better

I'm appreciate it loads!

I have too much emotions

......

I just donno how and where to begin from

2009-07-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

Im not convince,
i ll not be,
just bcoz you are,
i want to convince,
just bcoz i hv faith,
i want u to be,
Have faith in me, Have faith in you
i ll wait
i ll see
AND
there will be!!!

You'll always be superboy to me.
xoxo

2009-07-20T02:36:00.000-07:00

I dont want to set the world on fire,

I just wanna start a flame in your heart <3

2009-07-18T02:22:00.000-07:00

I just so lazy to blog.

I know.I know. This blog is getting bloody boring. Hahaha.

I used to blog a lot about my daily happenings and all but I slowly come to realize that all

of that was rather unnecessary and might be ( perhaps) a bit too much of an exhibitionist.

So there you have it. I have more to keep to myself and less to share or I think my life is getting

too damn boring hahahahaha..

RYAN n friends came over to my working place on friday hehe...all of you are so supportive especially ryan =) he is just so lovable <3

2009-07-17T02:17:00.000-07:00

Dear I Miss UUUUUUUUUUUUU!

I"VE NEVER FELT HAPPIER AND I'M SUPER DUPER HAPPY THAT YOU'RE MY DEAR :)

Hahahaha

Hello=)

2009-07-12T10:41:00.000-07:00

Hello Lovelies!!!

I know I haven't been updating and my memory is getting horrible. I'm super lazy to recall what I've been doing for the past week or so. I'm actually thinking about how to manage my studies at this instance. Like how to sort out my notes and actually really start seriously studying but here i am blogging.

Well, lets talk about FUSION BAZAAR!! an event that organized by HCC PR'S Student!

Since we got 4hours break time so just went to look around...

lets the picture do the talking...i'm so lazy to type...

Both of them so cute!

Me n Lovely Siew Ee

Pizza tht we ordered,looked nice but taste normal oni.

Finally can take pic wif them..Left, Zhiee Right,cute Anne:)

Yoke,Anne & cute lion(sorry i donno his name)

Group Pic. Everyone looks great here!

Deng!deng!deng!deng!Lovely Anne & Victor!!

INTI!!!

2009-07-12T10:19:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh!! i miss my INTI'S FRIEND so so so BADLY!!!!

how good if i could back to INTI and fool around with them, laugh together, hang out together , study together.....i just so miss that good old times...

especially SIEW PENG!! my so good fren ! i knew her since Standard 1.. she is very hardworking , funny, love to JOKE n LAUGH ! hahaha ( when i meet her sure hv many topics to talk 1..n 1 thing is sure LAUGH DIE ME muahahaha~ and YES, she is very helpful oso..if I have problems or troubles, she sure will try her best n help me willingly..She is REAL TRUE FREN!!she is kind yet good hearted! this kind of fren really hard to find !! i'm really appreciate n glad to know her !! Its my pleasure can be her fren! FRIENDSHIP FOREVER !!

Love STORY

2009-07-10T05:45:00.000-07:00

I miss u so darn much.

A downpour's coming and i'm wishing so much for you to be my side.

I am disappointed that i let myself sick into such expectation.

I haven't fully mentally prepared.

I constantly tell myself it ain't gonna much longer from now. But it feels like eternity.

My heart aches horribly badly because of u.

And yet, I can't seem do anything.

anything at all all to do better the emotional and physical shit you're going through.

sometimes I feel the support I'm giving ain't enough at all..'sigh'

Last time I told myself u would be my love untill im get married. i know tat perhaps u will laugh n probably thought i was foolish to think tat way n wanna tell me tat im still living with a mindset of what liltle children have after reading fairy tales. Well,i don't deny that.

Im here still growing and learning.

I don't deny that there would be obstacles n problems in relationships but it would make us stronger right? but by all the way truth is cruel..

I wonder how I fell in love with him and even deeper n deeper...

my heart feel sour...

Don't keep things from me no more.

just tell me alright? so that i'll know.

i'll understand.

...........................................................................................................................................................................

I say : I miss him so much.

She says : Wake up!!! no point missing him coz ur only gonna make urself emo...and the fact that he's already out in ur life reiterate my point.

Missing him won't bring any advantages to u.

Missing him affects ur mood.

Missing him affects ur concentration level.

Missing him affects ur attitude towards ur sch work + people.

NO POINT to be all emo and sad over him!!!

I say : Good.

She says : I was a love counsellor :)

Untitled Post

2009-07-03T11:24:00.000-07:00

There's something wrong with me recently. I've been feeling nauseous and all plus headaches here and there.. :S

Hmmm...I hear stories about how some guys are and it's uncommon. I stop and think and realize how scary the male population can be. This is random, thinking of it made me feel as if I was engulfed with wave of insecurity, I was scared.

How many guys words cannot be trusted at all.

How some silly girls still do.

As people said, love is blind that i really can't explain.

It's so difficult to find someone true and real. But i think still got few others.

And I think about him and I feel a whole load better already. This is why I thin he is special.

My Superman. 'laughs'

Presentation Day+ Red Box day+Hotel stay

2009-06-29T07:36:00.000-07:00

Today is my 1st presentation in Han Chiang College...

Well,nothing much 2 say coz nothing special about it hahaha..

After present went out from the class n take photo lol~

Me n Suet Ling

Me n Yuet Ling ( yeah,they're twin sister!! )

This is our HCC's Alien lol (above)

After college,me n sis met up wif ryan n eric!!! we planned to go sing k long time ago..

Well, they really can sing!! just like the superstar while they were singing.. Ryan very

expert in MLTR's song n Thai song!! thumbs up!! n Eric expert in Jacky Cheung's song!

After that i got free hotel stay for 3days 2night at Berjaya Georgetown HOTEL,1 stop there...

so i packed up all my things and went there 2 relax hehe..

At car..waiting brother to buy supper...

Supper..guess whose tam chiak hand is this??

Marcus Siew's Birthday

2009-06-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday To My Lovely Nephew Marcus

Siew

My beloved Marcus..super cute right?!!

Today is his big day, 3 years old birthday!! I love him loads although he is naughty enough lol=P
Just now we celebrated his birthday at 1stop restaurant...all the dishes are so delicious,all of us ate
till gao gao haha..sipek FULL~ little marcus was so happy=)

This is the restaurant

Felt so bored while waiting for the dish...so 1 thing only i can do is......take photo!!!
Me n my dear sis

SS:)
After ss-ing,1st dish was served...

Duck's skin+popiah skin

2nd dish
3rd dish..shark fin~

4th dish...fish~loving it<3
5th dish...prawn~
6th dish...mixed vege~
7th dish..mee~ 'thumbs up' yum~

The last one is 'tong shui'....i forgot 2 take picture coz busy playing with marcus haha.
ok,photo session again~

Nice cake~his favourite cartoon movie 'CARS'

1...2...3 BLOW!!!
Oh ya,got fruits sumore~

That's all for the wonderful day~ happy birthday again little marcus=)
At car...while going bck hom3:)

Specially Dedicated To Mr.Ryan

2009-06-25T06:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR RYAN!!!

I'm here to wish u happy birthday again!!! Good luck n all the best yea!!

Well,actually i'm not gonna post this out but since u feel so curious wat am i thinking about u so ok la...let me do some quick intro bout u 1st..

His name is Ryan. AGE : Matured :) He has a fit body after joined gym lol and....

okay,i have known him through my sis...then becomes good friend=)

He is matured enough yet young haha..hmmm...how i gonna describe him leh..

For me,he is handsome..but when i say him handsome,he will think that i'm flattering him..he seems like doesn't believe me lor...

What a bonus is he's extremely friendly and nice!!! I can talk everything,share everything with him..when i got any problems, i will try to tell him n he will listen 2 me n give me some opinions n advises..I really appreciate him as my fren..Other than that,he is such a humorous guy so that he always make me laugh like nobody business hahaha~and YESSSSS...he is super duper gentleman too =)

anyway,i'm just telling the truth ya...no lies!!!

however that depends on which of his books u are in :)

RED BOX

2009-06-24T11:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, sis fetched me back from college then suddenly she ajak me go red box,hmmm...since i got nothing to do then why not?? go relax n release my ' STRESS' !! sing sing sing !! hahaha..

sis brought along her laptop oso...u know why??because currently she is addicted to facebook's RESTAURANT CITY!!! wahlao~ while singing oso play,eating oso play,watching tv oso play...

but hor i got advantage hehe....that is....i can sing more muahahahaahz although i donno how 2 sing lol...

While she was playing her RESTAURANT CITY n i was singing+shouting lol

At 1st our singing time is from 4:30pm till 7:30pm but donno why we could sing untill 8:30pm lol...bonus 1hour for us?? hahaha...red box manager so good muahahahaz...

after that we went 2 gym...met alot of frens there, talk more then work out hahaha...waste money only..1 month RM99 ar...i can use this money go n shopping instead of pay RM99 for talking at there hahaha...but i 'mmm seh tek' (canto) there bcoz of someone..do u know who??....*secret* wink=P

After gym Mr.Dylon called me out for a drink, since long time din see him d so ok lor...went 2 sunset bistro talked talked talked till almost 2am then back home...argggh...my mouth r so tired coz sing n talk too much hahaha..im such a talkative gal~ =P

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2009-06-23T12:27:00.000-07:00

美好的爱情是带着牺牲的，

也是可以炫耀的，

尽管他不帅，不美，

你却愿意告诉全世界，

他是你的最爱！

我知道你们都是为了我好

2009-06-22T11:00:00.000-07:00

三年内不见了多少部电话？？！

弄失了多少样东西？？！！

要名牌，有名牌！！！

好！！这还不用紧，拥有了却不会好好的照顾！！！！

暑假工从没做过。。

钱还不会赚，却很会花钱。。

没错。。被姐姐和妈咪骂了一顿！！

我知道你们骂我都是为了我好。。

你们全部都太疼我太宠我了。。我要什么你们统统都满足我。。

姐说得对，现在过的生活那么好，花钱花习惯了，那以后万一没有得好像现在这样花钱买东西，我还能够生存吗？

我承认我是败家女没错。。爸妈最疼我了。。有什么半法呢？？哈哈。。开玩笑的啦＝）

我真的会好好的反省了。。

我还是很伤心。。那是我最心爱的手表。。有钱也买不回我要的那种款式了＝（

而且那只手表是我第一次用我的储蓄钱买的啊！！妈的～

我恨死你啊。。祝你戴了我的手表以后霉运滚滚来哼！！王八蛋臭鸡蛋！！

WTH!!!

2009-06-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

I'm so so so SAD!!!=(

i lost my beloved GUESS watch in celebrity!!

arghh.....how come nowadays all those ppl's behavior oso like this 1??GREEDY!

i know it's my fault bcoz of my careless but why???why they can take others ppl things easily...won't they feel guilty?? why they juz can't care of others ppl feelings?!! i'm really fed up of those ppl u knw!!

ok i'm not saying myself very good but then atleast i won't steal others ppl things!! that day in celebrity got a gal left her hp at the treadmill there,when i saw it i quickly sent it to the reception place....after tht when the gal knew it was me sent it 2 there, she kept on saying thank you very much to me..hmmm..can help ppl is my pleasure=)

haiz.....maybe some of u will say me stupid n will think did so many good deeds so what?!! at last what can u get?? u get nothing at all!!

however, i'm still won't act like those heartless ppl!!! F*** U OFF!! i know im rude but im really very angry n upset!!! i juz wanna express my feelings out!! =(

OMG

2009-06-21T13:34:00.001-07:00

Oh My God!!! what is the time now??? alr 5:00am now n i'm still AWAKE!!

arghhh...what to do? i'm still 'long ma jing shen' now hahahaha XD but but...i tomorrow got class larr...HUMAN COMM!! 10am class...still have 2 stay back in college 2hrs...sien lor..

but nvm lar...i can bring my laptop n play games so tht time only can pass faster hehehe..ermm..lets talk about my coll since nth to talk about...study at there i think got 2 months d lur..everything goes well haha..juz all tht stupid assignments bother me only !!many ppl asked me how come i will choose this course..n my ANSWER is..........because this is the most interesting n relax course ever muahahahaz...at1st i took business course in INTI but after studied at there few days i found that im not interested in business at all so only changed to mass comm...but honestly i like INTI so so much coz many of my frens oso study at there...n sumore 1 thing...NEARBY my house only...I LOVE INTI!!! but my current coll not bad oso lar...all the ppl very friendly n nice..but i seldom join them lor...bcoz not much time gather with them oso...reason is when break time im sure bck home 1 haha..less communication but i still can communicate with them very well..bcoz hor..i'm friendly enough hahaha..anyway,i still love my Han Chiang's friends!! glad to know u all really...n my INTI's frens too..gonna miss u all!!

ok,i think i should stop here ler...should i say good night or good morning?? lol...watever la..bye~ chaoz!

Happy Father's Day

2009-06-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

I LOVE YOU DADDY!!!

Thanks For Everything..

You're my greatest dad ever muacksssz..

Love

2009-06-20T12:39:00.000-07:00

Love is dear,

Love is rare,

Love is never where your eyes would stare

Unexpectedly even blindingly

Love will show its face to you,

NO LIE...

爱是亲密，爱是珍稀

爱是注视是也会用心

爱是真心，没有矫情

前尘久梦。。。

2009-06-19T11:31:00.000-07:00

We never met each other quite long time dy..i think almost half year dy..

Time past really fast...if you ask me do i miss u??honestly YES!! if i say no definitely is lie u 1...

everybody oso said 2 me like this‘please let go lar,he is nothing 2 u, just treat him as a ‘过客’!!"

u can say it easily,but if really wanna do it is super super SUPER hard u know!!

i don't fall in love easily really...he is the only one who i love the most!!

i'm really really miss all the time when we were together...those memories is my PRECIOUS!! i will keep it in my heart forever!

At 1st when i knew the news i can't deny that i was really really angry with u n i HATE u!!

u just can't imagine that how sad am i...HEART BROKEN!! it's really hurt u know..u won't understand my feeling forever!

Y can't u explain to me? y wan others informed me? y i was the last person who knew it??

you just act like a coward u know...r u a guy???

But at last i made myself 2 forgive u...if not HOW?? angry u forever?? 我还想怎样？我还要怎样？我还能怎样？？！！so i wish u happy forever instead of hate u forever...i know i've made a smart choice=)

Memories

2009-06-18T12:31:00.000-07:00

把前尘久梦

从记忆箱里抽出来

再温习一遍！

你的话已经锁在记忆里，

那支钥匙，

你就替我保管一辈子吧！

Drag me to hell...

2009-06-17T19:40:00.000-07:00

Just now went to GURNEY watched movie..The title of the movie is 'Drag Me To Hell'!!

The story line was not bad =) Actually not really scary lar, juz very shocking n disgusting~

i think the lesson told us when old lady asking for help...please DON'T reject!! if not u will get into trouble LOL..

Mrs Ganush!! yuck...

English Week

2009-06-16T18:08:00.000-07:00

LOVE ENGLISH

This week is english week so they had organized a event in Han Chiang College and it's theme ' Love English'!! Nowadays english is very important to us so we should use english more!

Ok Back to the Point haah! I reached coll at 8am and then i gathered with my group member, my group member have PEI RONG,ZOELL,NICOLE,KAMINI,PURPLE GAL,SHINE,HENRY & ZHI WEI!! When the event started,we need to write an essay with the given point in a limited time. And then,we need to act what we had wrote in our essay. Honestly,we really didn't do well in the 1st audition, so all of us thought tht we sure can't go into the final round d...

But who knows.....!!! our A2 group really got into the finalist!! WOW!! it's so unbelievable !! Really unexpected! We all were so so damn happy n exited hahaha !

Later on,we still have to act 1 more time so all of us very cherish the chance n kept practice..

Me , Shine & Zhi Wei were actor.

Henry was the guitarist. &

Nicole,Zoell,Pei Rong,Kamini n Purple gal were story reader!

I was so so nervous n panic coz it was my 1st time stand on the stage 2 act in front of so many people...I try my best 2 act well but still got a little mistake=( ..However,I did enjoy but felt tht got abit sia sui LOL..

Shine did very well haha... FUNNY us haa!

Finally, our team got the 3rd prize!! I very satisfied d coz I thought our team will get the last prize hehe.. Happy Happy=)

SS-ing :)

Our team A2!!!

Finalist!!!

Dance Performance !!

They dance very well too=) Claps Hand^^

FInally I Cut My Hair!!

2009-06-15T19:06:00.000-07:00

BEFORE

AFTER

Hahahaha!! actually not much different lar juz my fringe become shorter only...

Some of my friends like my this hairstyle while some of them said previous hairstyle is nicer!

So,what do u think? =)

幸福比面子重要

2009-06-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

最近收到一位朋友的e-mel, 撇开追究故事的虚实，只要用心体会，这则故事的确令人有所感慨。

故事内容讲述一对男女青年，彼此都对对方心存好感。男的到US升学，女孩也很在乎那位在大洋彼岸的男孩。

2年后，女孩要嫁人，新郎不是那位男孩。原来有一回男孩回来时，他俩为某事起争执，男孩愤然返US，两人从此未再联络。

女孩与男孩吵架后，仍然深深期盼跟他再联络，但谁也不愿意先低头，所以两人僵持半年多。女孩在最落寞的时候，一位同时十分照顾她，之后还向他求婚；女孩很为难，要求男同事给她一个月时间考虑。

这时，女孩丢开面子和矜持，鼓起勇气，寄了封长信把她对男孩的牵挂和目前的状况告诉男孩，希望男孩赶快和她联络。

信寄到US时，正好是 christmas holiday,男孩去度假所以没接到她的letter.女孩等不到音训，一个月以后就和同事结婚。男孩回到学校看到了信的那一天，刚好是女孩举行婚礼的日子。后来，女孩才知道男孩接到信后当场大哭。

我们往往因为太在意谁先开口，谁先低头等面子问题，错失了生命中的重要机缘。在生活上，不管是朋友,couple,夫妻，母女，父子等等，往往都会因一些小争执而吞不下一口气，双方都不愿意先开口打破僵局，冷战就此蔓延，严重的可能还会带来不堪设想的后果。

如果一辈子的等待，甚至是终生的遗憾相比，面子又算的了什么，想想看，幸福与面子，那一样比较重要？？？

无怨，无恨，无争，无嫉。———就是快乐：）

2009-06-08T07:03:00.000-07:00

心美的人，无论看什么东西都觉得美。。
日子每天一样过，可是我却不感到沉闷，因为活着就是最好的！！！

不要以为自己一无是处，

有些地方你有过人之处，

因为每个人的特质各有不同。。。

其实平凡的人也有他们值得我们学习的地方的！！＝）

哭泣不能消除昨日的哀伤，只能消除明天前进的力量

2009-06-03T06:22:00.000-07:00

To Someone i <3

<3>

love is like a butterfly, the more u chase it, the more it eludes u. But if u juz let it fly, it'll come 2 u when u least expect it. Love can make u happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when u giv it 2 some1 who is really worth it. So everybody, take ur time n choose the best!!

<3 to my frens who r not so single...

Luv isn't bout becoming somebody else's ' PERFECT PERSON '. It's bout finding some1 who helps u become the best person u can be... right??

爱一个人不是单爱他的外貌，

金钱，

而是爱他那配合你的心，

思想及对待，性格，

是否能够相处一辈子，

永远走下去。。。

My Cousin's Wedding

2009-06-01T11:18:00.000-07:00

Eng Hong & Amy's Wedding

Wish both of you happy forever:)

That day morning supposed we have to wake up early in the morning to attend their wedding tea ceremony but then all of us overslept because before the night we played like nobody business so all of us slept very late..serve us right LOL..we were rushing like hell n we thought sure late dy but manatau we were the 1st family reached there hahaha...all of them haven't reach yet..pheew~ so we took our breakfast 1st while waiting for them..after that around 10pm, all the 'HIA DI' n youngsters get ready to go to the bride's house..ok,don't be so 'chiong hei' d..so lets the pictures do the talking=)

we horn like nobody business hahaha..sipek noisy...LOL

'Hia Di'

Around 1pm, we back to bride n bridegroom own new house..after taken lunch, we went back home n rest for awhile coz later at night still have wedding dinner n we all were damn exhausted!!! After rest, around 6pm all of us get ready n started to dress up coz by 7:15pm we have to reach there dy...the wedding reception was at Vistana Hotel, Penang..We reached there around 7:30pm n saw many ppl already arrived n all of them were snapping photo..so we also follow them take photo 1st lah since the dinner haven't start yet hehe..

these 3 pairs of couples already registered n going to marry in this year!! wow..so many ppl marry in this year huh...COW year seems like very good hor muahahahaz :)

Me n mummy=)

Sometimes i wonder when will i get married?? hahaha future things who knows?!! i'm always like to day dreaming...whenever where i am LOL

Father and son :)

My family, 3ko & husband

After the dinner ended, almost all the guests back d...juz left my family & all the hia di..Do u know what we did?? they wanna challenge me,my sis n mum LOL..they don't believe we whole family can drink 1 so they wanna challenge us...At the end, who is the winner??

Of course is.....................................US la!!! hahaha...the person who speak the most loudest said wanna challenge us 1 drunk like hell hahahaha...laugh die me lol..he straight away lied down on the chair HAAH! Actually i oso got abit dizzy d lol...so around 12smth we went bck home d..

That's all for the day=)

Hello Everybody~

2009-05-28T07:17:00.000-07:00

Hello people~

i'm just created a blog !!! hahaha...i know i'm very outdated.. almost everybody has a blog now and i'm just started to write nia...actually i wanna create a blog since long long time ago but i scared nothing 2 write n donno what 2 write LOL...coz i don hv many activities like others people..their life is so so happening n interesting...but me....NORMAL LIFE!!! so i think i won't update everyday and YES,i know i'm not a good blogger hehe :)